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Friday, October 21, 2005

[[better days]]

wow. i haven't been here in long. so many things have happened. espeicially my birthday stuff. it was awesome. been meaning to blog about it. but i donno. just haven't. and don't feel like blogging about it now too. although i must say i think that was one fo my best birthdays ever :D

feelign quite happy right now. which is a rare thing these days. maybe its the thought that i finally have a direction in life. something to aim towards. something i might possibly be able to achieve and enjoy. but there's still this nagging feeling at the back of my mind. "what if you don't get it. what if things dont work out" i'm trying to ignore it for now, but its quite difficult. there's nothign much i can do i guess..except leave it in God's hands.

but what if it's a mistake. what if it's not what i really want. what if..

hmm..or maybe i'm just happy cos the endorphins from my run haven't run out yet. ahhh it felt good running again. managed to run for about 20 mins before my ankle started spazzing out on me. i wonder if that will ever go away :S hahah. yay! i love jogging at night! no sun, just a nice breeze.

anyway as i was jogging, this coffeshop sign suddenly caught my eye. it said "s23 kopitiam". lol. i started laughing to myself like some maniac. was just trying to imagine our class operating a kopitiam. hahah. man i'm gonna miss this class. it's really made my time in nj so much more enjoyable. if it wasnt for them and hockey, i think i might actually have hated the school.

and you can't exactly hate something that gave you such wonderful friends can you.

tags
xt-what guru instincts??
sharm- yeah. my feelings abt prom hv kinda died down. its kinda hard to give a shit abt it right now. haha
hang- yeah but ur always hanging arnd with that weasel. maybe u learnt it from him.
kori- you hhhhhhhmmmmmmmm so loud for what??
jenn-heh. yeah cycle hahah.you know which one im talking abt.lionness? tigress? she's more like a doofus..
yihui- ur words of wisdom hv enlightened me. prom is now a speck of dust.
huiming- nono.no uneasy frekay feeling anymore..haha.thanks for the present once again! its awesome. so bouncy and green and comfy.
huigs- yup.just a few hours. haha. eh hg. thanks again for the wonderful chair *refers to 2nd part of above response* nic IS a predator. she just tries to hide it in public. everyone thinks i bully. but it's actually the other way arnd :( hahahaha
nic- i cant believe oc ended :( heh. and i cant believe u said u got julie cooper's body.lol
yihui- okkkk..interesting info there..
jenn- i dont love horny boys! hello. i think anyone with half a brain can see that that entry was not my work.lol.
thomas- im not pervy! its all THAT girl's doing! hahah thanks :)
sharm- yeah she's a sneaky little beaver isnt she. haha thanks man. for the "surprise" party, the card, everything :D
nic- u steal my word! hahah. i cant believe u did this sneak attack. hahah, was very very surprised when i opened my blog. hahah. thanks for helping me record my 18th bdae down on my blog :) although u cld have chosen a better picture! stupido
thomas- haha funny guy. dont wear anything la. ahhhh *turns blind* hahah
yihui- big hug returned :)
sharm- hahah blog alr la
shaan-YOU!you! ahhhh! u came! hahaha..eh.just wanna say thanks for the hard rock surprise. it was AWESOME. awesomingly awesome. i love u!

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